arghh. arghh. *sigh*... shit.
im in pain right now. physically and emotionally. i havent had a good sleep since this painful thing happened in my ear. i had a fight, friggin-childish fight, misunderstanding, (na pinatulan ko naman) whatever you wanna call it with my full-of-pride-just like-me-and-controversial-and-over-sentimental-and-over-emotional-college-acquaintances. i dont know what, how SHOULD i think right now, and act tomorrow. i really feel bad. i wish i hadnt talked that time. i should have kept quiet knowing that it is fuckin useless to reason out when you know they werent believin.
damn it. the result: im wrong and i should be sorry. im the bad guy. im the one who left them, who doesnt know how to listen and how to understand.
i want to disappear. i dont want to go to school anymore. i cant hate them. i cant blame them. i even feel no anger.
i just wish my highschool friends were here. i missed them.
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buti na lang mei =My Girl=. kahit papaano sumasaya ako. crush na crush na crush ko talaga yung singkit. =Nico= yung name nia sa TV program. siya nga yung wallpaper ko ngayon. *sigh*
kamusta naman?!!!
im in pain right now. physically and emotionally. i havent had a good sleep since this painful thing happened in my ear. i had a fight, friggin-childish fight, misunderstanding, (na pinatulan ko naman) whatever you wanna call it with my full-of-pride-just like-me-and-controversial-and-over-sentimental-and-over-emotional-college-acquaintances. i dont know what, how SHOULD i think right now, and act tomorrow. i really feel bad. i wish i hadnt talked that time. i should have kept quiet knowing that it is fuckin useless to reason out when you know they werent believin.
damn it. the result: im wrong and i should be sorry. im the bad guy. im the one who left them, who doesnt know how to listen and how to understand.
i want to disappear. i dont want to go to school anymore. i cant hate them. i cant blame them. i even feel no anger.
i just wish my highschool friends were here. i missed them.
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buti na lang mei =My Girl=. kahit papaano sumasaya ako. crush na crush na crush ko talaga yung singkit. =Nico= yung name nia sa TV program. siya nga yung wallpaper ko ngayon. *sigh*
kamusta naman?!!!
1 comment:
Sana naman ang "away" na yun is good for our friendship. We can never be the perfect friends or hindi rin cguro namin maabot ang level ng pinagsamahan mo with your highschool friends, pero we try to be good friends. Most importantly, we try to keep it real. Walang plastikan. So pagbigayn mo na kami kung minsan we want to voice out our feelings. Role mo na rin yun as our friend to listen. Hindi ka nagkamali na pinatulan mo yung "childish" fight na yun. You just did what a friend would do. Tapos your not the bad guy, kapag kasi may misunderstanding between friends... and we all try to fix it... we're all the good guys. Ok?
I hope na cool na tayo sa issue na to... and I hope na mawala na rin ang sakit sa ear mo. Ingat ka always. =)
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