POST DAILY

i'm beginning to post daily. -_-'

i woke up early this morning. 7:30. hmmm... not good. not good. mom's going somewhere and i need to tend the house for the whole day today. And not to forget my date this afternoon. Meeting place: 6:30pm at Power Books, SM Megamall. I hope i wont be late again.

I have talked to some highschool friends yesterday. I have a chat with Garrene. He's also studying at Mapua taking up CE. (CE, hayy..) In the middle of the talk, he told me that Danilo had Dengue! Hwuaa! My Kuya got Dengue. payat payat kc. I pray that he's fine now.

Later that evening, Jarold called (he's from Mapua Makati), asking if I still play badminton. I told himm, I still play but not that often. Then, he invited me to try a court here in our village. He said he needs exercise, and that he also pressumed that I'm getting fat that's why he invited me. CRUEL!

I so love badminton. memories! he'll inquire on what's the cost of the court. it'll be not that cheap as with intra's 60pesos per court, he reminded me.

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hmm... got so many meetings and appointments. *ahem* loving each moment! I'm back to my ole self again. This only happens during vacation, um.. err.. break, much correct.

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I've finalized my ever so dear ugly sked. i'll survive! aja! got a better grade last term, mind you!!! whahaha!! i'll improve and i'll be a MONSTER!

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no talk with my special someone. just plain forwarded text massages. my mood changes very quickly, i almost forget all about him. i'm so busy watching again BLEACH. Oi ja! hindi corny ang bleach! bleh! Xp

CLOSER

the whole family (except for my dad, of course) went out yesterday. after my mom and my youngest sister went to UST (entrance examination) while tin and I attended mass, we went straight ahead to SM Megamall... we ate at Goldilocks (lamon ata yun! Ha-ha!). we ordered baked mac, relenong bangus for me, pork and chicken barbeque, pinakbet for my mom, mais con yelo, rice, and softdrinks. phew! all filipino food, and it so fun to eat. i've always wanted that.

next stop, tin went to "bayad centers", mine and mom went to the supermarket where we will meet, and i ran to the stationary to buy some drawing materials. weee... here i go again. i bought a new sketch pad, erasersssssss - two for pencil (soft tip and hard tip) and one architectural eraser; and stationary papers. hehe... i have another mission and I'm hoping that it'll be great and successful! (cam, can't wait till tomorrow, tuesday!)

at the supermarket.. gahd! my sisters are so cruel! they acted like little children - laughing out so loud and getting the crowd's attention, getting and then leaving products, running all around, teasing each other, annoying me, playing with the cart and so on. the youngest even bought lettuce and thousand islands sauce. now i'm obliged to eat at least one leaf a day!!! hayyy... still, i soon noticed that we're all happy. yes, i am. and also my mom.

as usual, we bought our usual stuff - many snacks this time but no junk foods. and then took a cab. phew!

arriving at our home, i opened the computer to fix my sked. got an ugly sked. wished i could stay at a dorm.

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i'm a little close with my special
someone.

good thing he knows me although all
i get is nothing but tease.

no plans of telling
him. he knows how to make me feel better. he knows how to understand

i'm satisfied.

i'm happy with him.

yeah!

see yah next term!

I'm TAKEN ?!?

I woke up at 1030am, and it pains my head. I got nothing to tirade about. Ha-ha! All I did was to eat, sleep, open the computer, watch TV, watch BLEACH, clean the house, eat sleep, open the computer... and the cycle continues! (The circle of LIFE... Lion King! nyahahaha!)

UPDATES:

1. I'm working on a new LAYOUT. I hope and I pray that wont get lazy.
2. My hair's getting longer. huwaa!
3. Right now... roght at this very moment, I'm eating. (hihihi.. pancit canton and bread. chalap!)
4. and...

I PASSED ALL MY SUBJECTS!!! ROAR!!! ALL "TAKEN"!!!!

SOME QUOTES TO SHARE:

These are the quotes from my GLOBE SIM. I don't want to erase them all at once, but my cellphone's memory is getting full. And since I don't have load (poor me... *ahem*), might as well store it here, ne?

• Somebody once asked me, "How do you hold LOVE?" I answered, "With your hands wide open, you palms facing up and with your heart ready to let go and let the other grow"... and that somebody asked, "What if it hurts you?" I smiled wistfully and said, "THEN IT MEANS YOU'RE DOIN' RIGHT!! -ZHELA GO (Sept. 08, 2006; 17:33:44)
• Never try to impress someone, to make him or her fall in love with you... 'coz when you do, you'll keep that standard for the rest of your life. JUST BE YOURSELF! Kung ayaw sa'yo... SAPAKIN MO!c: -RONALD CEPRES (Sept. 08, 2006; 23:25:17)
• Dont grow old filled with regrets... for the things not done, ...for words not said, and ...for love not shown. LIFE is not about what must be done, but WHAT YOU CAN DO! ^_^ -NIKKI ARCEO (Sept. 21, 2006; 10:00:03)
• Madaling ipakita sa lahat na masaya ka... Pwede maging abala para lang kalimutan siya... Madaling magsinungaling... Pwedeng mandaya... Pero, kaano ka ba kagaling??? KAPAG NAG-IISA KA BA, GANYAN KA PA RIN? -MICHAEL SALIK (Sept. 22, 2006; 12:38:08)
• People have different outlooks in love. But whatever are those... there's only a single truth behind everyone's heartache: "Love hurts when God knows we deserve someone else." c: -ZHELA GO (Sept. 21, 2006; 06:21:02)
• Never let go of anyone that you couldn't go a day without thinking about. There just might be a very good reason why they're always on your mind. Sometimes, its the brain that knows too well what the heart tries so hard to deny -ZHELA GO (Aug. 21, 2006; 06:30:03)

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I love these quotes
that's why I can't just erase them. there are more of them here. got lazy again.
I fave's the first one. hmmm?

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JAPAN NUMBER...!!!!

I watched "Yakitate Japan" (on TV) and "Bleach" (on PC) at the same time later this afternoon. Huwaa! It's true, that you can't watch two cartoons at the same time. Ha-ha!

"Yakitate Japan" is an anime series about Kazuma Azuma (one of my children), a genius young boy who bakes bread that could bring anyone to heaven and can even change history. 5-stars for this anime! I recommend this to all kinds of people, especially those who want to rest their minds and feel happy.

"Bleach" (*scream*) is also an anime series about (my ever dearest) Kurosaki Ichigo – an abnormal 15 year old handsome young guy who could talk to ghosts and later on, became a "Death God"; and Kuchiki Rukia – a small young lady (and very cute. *ahem*) and is also a "Shinigami"... blah blah... just watch! 5-stars again and it's very funny. It's extremely recommended. (Abarai!!!)

If you want great anime, the following are also recommended:
- One Piece
- Gundam Wing
- Hunter X Hunter
- Soul Hunter

It's not all about the drawing, graphics and special effects that I advocate these anime. There's something that made me love them. It is not also for the reason that there are handsome characters. **Listen very carefully. Open your heart and mind. And finally, know how to understand**

Only, subnormal people like me could ever comprehend. *sigh*

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my love... forever...

DENGUE OUTBREAK

Hello!

I got sick recently and thought it was Dengue. Oh, how I wish it was! Ha-ha! I really dreamt of having dextrose on my hand. It was last, last week when I don’t feel right. My head aches so hard and my heart is very heavy. I can’t breathe, so much of sneezing, and the burning feeling. Waaa! Worsening the scenario, it was Hell week – a week before the finals. For those who do not know, Hell week in Mapua is when we usually pass our prototypes, machine problems, projects, giving of last quizzes, removal exams, etc. all at the same week or time or day! I can’t imagine how I’ve survived!

There’s a “Dengue Outbreak” in Manila, and in other provinces such as in Rizal. (I’m living at Cainta, Rizal, please take note. Ha-ha!). I knew some school mates who were infected by the virus. Thank God they’re ok now. (Rey! Hmmm… you should’ve told me! Bad! But you’re not ought to… hay! Ha-ha!)

My sister once had Dengue. She was in Medical City for 5 days if I’m not mistaken. Luckily, no blood transfusion whatever was needed because she was in the early stages of Dengue (I love my sister, please take note. Ha-ha!). But until now, I’m not convinced that it is a deadly disease. Is it?

Still, I want to experience being confined in a hospital. Oh! But I know I will – when I get pregnant. Although, that’s a very, very long way to run, and its uncertain (whether if I’m still alive by that time then… bwahaha!)

I’ve nothing more to add.

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I love this quote:

“We grow old and suddenly, we want to hurry things. Don’t commit when you’re not
ready. Don’t keep others waiting endlessly. To fulfill your parenting fantasies,
get a puppy. Don’t bring another life into this world for all wrong reasons. To
keep yourself warm, buy a jacket. In the long run, it will be less complicated
and less costly. Take care of yourself. Don’t wait for someone to take care of
you. No one completes you except – YOU! ^_^”

===> ZHELA (September 22, 2006 16.53.41)

WAJUH!

have changed my URL for the meantime...

bwahaha.

for unexplained reasons of which i can't tell.

forgive me.

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planning to have big changes in my blog. starting on my next entry, i'll try to write about things that everyone could relate and react. i'll do my best. hope many would leave a comment.

that's it for now. i'm very busy (as usual).

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i can't wait anymore.

i want this term to end -- NOW.

i'm tired.

i'm depressed.

i'm hurt.

WALA

wujuh! andami ko pang gagawin. pero, mas gusto kong magblog. hihihi...

kahapon, friday... September 08, 2006

Birthday ni Mama Mary and birthday din ng cousin ko. (Ate May. Happy birthday!!! Godbless!). Puyat ako kahit na walang pasok nung thursday. ginawa ko kasi yung prototype namin sa logic. hayy, grabe. ilang beses na kaming nagpalit ng IC. ngayon, meron kaming 16 to 1 line Multiplexer. hahaha! ang laking IC! parang ipis pag-malayo. hahaha! anyways, gabi na nung inumpisahan ko yung last report. hindi ko tinapos kc ako pa yung ggawa ng progress report namin. asar.

kinabukasan, ayun nga. puyat. tulog sa FX. pangit ng mata. expected din na tiring din yung araw. ganun kc ako. kapag hindi maganda yung feeling ko sa umaga na para bang ayaw kong pumasok, ibig sabihin, hndi magiging maganda yung day. pagpasok, tinuloy ko na agad yung report. hindi ko na tinapos. asar na ko, e. tapos, pinaxerox yung ibang kailangan sa progress report. tapos, lab na. dumating na si ma'am. yung mga mei dalang materials, gagawin yung prototype. yung ibang wala, mag-ppractical. isang group lang yung nagpractical. wawa naman! kami, gumagawa. hayy... ang linis daw. kaya lang, feeling ko asar na saken si Lez. pano ba naman. ayaw ko ng hindi saktong wire. gusto ko, diretso at fit. tumatagal at nahihirapan ng maggupit ng wires yung mga ka-groupmates ko. hahaha! ayos lang yan. puyat ako dahil d2, e.sabi ko sa kanila: "anak ng jueteng! asar na asar na ko! bakit mali! ayaw umilaw yung LED! magmumura na ko!". sabi nila, "sige! ilabas mo! ayus lang... hahaha!"... ang sama sama pa man din ng pakiramdam ko kc mei sipon at ubo ako.

after nun, nakita ko sina Romeo and Bulay sa labas kasama ang boyfriend niya, si Luigi. kakain sana ako kaso 45mins nalang. hindi na ko kumain kc tinatamad din akong bumaba. diretso (diritsu!!!) na ko sa rum. pagpunta ko ron, nakita ko na c chen, tonix and ean sa labas. pareho pang naka-pink si ean and chen at natutulog si chen. ininggit na naman ako ni tonix kasi magkasama daw silang tatlo sa condo nila ean. haha!

waLng ginawa sa first two subjects. break time (3 - 430), nagsimba ako. kasama ko ulit si Romeo, Bulay, and Luigi. gumaan yung pakiramdam ko. andami kong pinagdasal. andami kong sinabi at kinuwento sa kanya. inatake pa ko ng ubo. bigla akong inubo na ayaw tumigil. hayy... malala na. sana magtuloy-tuloy.

pakiramdam ko ayos na ko ulit. kaso, nasira. yung strength kasi. hindi ko maintindihan. hahaha! mei nagdadasal ata na bumagsak ako. kamusta naman?

++++lumalabas na naman ang pagka-demonyita ko++++

naku! jokeness na nung uwian! haha! paxerox kame. naabutan ng ulan. kumain sa kantunan. kasama ko sina mek, tonix, chen and hisham. nagbrown-out. kumikidlat. takot pa man din ako sa kidlat. tapos, nananakot pa na nasa likod ko daw si marvin, e nasa dulo ako! wala akong katabi! mama!! waaa!! tapos, pumunta sa Mcdo. partner kami ni junjun sa payong. si chen and hisham. si mek wala. naawa nga ako, e. kasi wala ciang payong. kumain ng sundae sina junjun and mek. tapos, nang-iinggit si mek. (mukha mu, mek!! haha!!) tapos, nung naramdaman namin na hindi pa titigil yung ulan, umalis na din kame. ganun pa rin ang magkakapartner. si mek wala pa ring payong. tapos, si jogs dumating. ayun, mei partner na si mek. nag-LRT kami nila chen, hisham and mek. tapos, hinatid ni hisham si chen sa sakayan ng bus. tapos, mrt...

tapos, pilahan ng jeep papuntang pasig. tapos, nakita ko si JENNIFER!!!! waaaa!! sumigaw siya. hahaha! siya yung valedictorian namin na nag-aaral ngaun sa UP-D. nagkwentuhan kame chorvanes! oo nga pala, sobrang haba ng pila as in! siguro, simula mapua hanggang jabi lyceum! pramis! nasa halos unahan na si jhen nun, kaso nung nakita niya ako, sumama siya saken kaya nasa likod ulit siya. waaaw. miss na miss na daw niya ako. miss ko rin naman siya.

ayun, kwento - kwento. chorvaness. nasa palengke na kame, hindi pa rin tapos. hahaha! buti nalang nakita ko siya. (thanks, jhenn! Babaeng-babae ka na ngaun a!!! wahahaha!!!!)

tapos, sa sakayan ng tricycle, nakita ko naman yung schoolmate ko from LaConsolacion. ate hanna pa tawag sa saken. hehe. ngaun lang daw siya nlate. tanong ko sa kanya: "di ba LaCo Mendiola ka nagaaral? bakit ka naka-civilian, dear?" sabi niya swimming classes daw siya kasi ngaun kaya ganon. ahhh. ayun. pinauna ko na siya sa tricycle. take note, mahaba ulit yung pila!

pgdating sa bahay. nagayus ng gamit at mga files ko sa kwarto. ni-ready ko na ang mga envelopes para sa portfolio ng bawat subjects. maayus na! gumawa na rin ako ng list ng mga gagawin ko for next week - HELL WEEK!

ngayon, saturday, september 09, 2006

ginising ako ni mama mga 7am. pupunta kasi akong skul. gagawa ng prototype sa logic. kasi nga yung LED!! t*&%$@ LED yun! ang tigas ng ulo! kinalas namin yung buong circuit! inulit lahat! tapos nung tapos na, eto naman si BATTERY! naubos! t&*%$#@ talaga! naasar ako. umuwi na ko.

pero, hindi pa rin ako naka-uwi nun. nakasalubong ko c Brennier. gusto niya, siya na gagawa nung documentary sa prototype sa Ampli. sabi ko: "hindi, tutulungan kita!" tapos, biglang dumating sina Randy, Aldrin, Albert, and Jesse. dala nila yung amplifier!! waaa!! nag-wave agad ako kay Aldrin kasi siya yung unang nakakita sakin. ngumiti siya. sabi niya: "gumagana na!" waaa! yay!!! tapos, usap usap kami ni Randy. oovernight daw kina Aldrin. Alam daw niaya na hindi ako papayagan. haha! good. good. ayun!

nakasalubong ko naman si Hisham and Cris. (uyyyy!!! nyahaha! ) mei hiningi saken si hisham. nilait namin ni Cris yung sulat ni Cam. tapos, wala na! nyahaha!

uwi. daan sa SM Mega. Nagtingin tingin ng Formal Attire. pumunta sa alexan. pumunta sa National. pumnta sa French Baker at bumili ng pasalubong. at umuwin na! haha!

pagdating ko sa bahay, pinilit ako ni mama kumain. tapos, gawa agad ng casing ng prototype. baka, pumunta si Lez d2 bukas. tapos, nung tinamad na ko, nag-blog na lang ako... wahahaha!

kailangan kong mag-review kasi mei quiz kame sa LOGIC, STRENGTH and ELECTRONICS 2. hayy... tronix! ayaw kong bumagsak para sa daddy ko. pero. pero. PERO!!!

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naiinis ako sa mga manggagaya.

asar ang mga papampam.

bakit ba may mga taong TAE!!!

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Wen i was in grade 6, asar saken yung salutatorian namin.sabi niya, "i'm a pretender.

"How can i relax when i knew i have no assignment to pass?

...when i'm very late?

...when my teacher is already scolding me?
How can i smile and be ok even if everything around me has gone crazy? and that tears are already falling from my eyes?

How can i feel alright even if all people knew how problematic i am?

How can i laugh so loud even if i knew that my life is in peril or will be lonesome?

actually, hindi ko rin alam kung bakit, e.

ganun lang talaga siguro ako.

ayaw kong nakikita nila akong nasasaktan o nalulungkot.

bakit ko aaksayahin ang oras ko sa pagmumukmok and maging sad?

pahihirapan ko lang ang sarili ko.

pero, sa totoo lang.

nakakainggit din.

sana kaya kong magpakatotoo ng lubos-lubos...

sana kaya ko rin sabihin sa iba ng harap-harapan na...

"tama na."

"tigilan mo na."

"malungkot ako..."

"tang-ina ka!"

"nasasaktan ako..."

"gusto kita..."

"mahal ko siya..."

"mahal kita...

...mahal talaga kita."

DAMUHO

Whatta day!!! WHATTA WEEK!!!

i'm tired. very very tired. grabe! kung alam nio lang. malapit na kasi ang finals kaya gawaan na ng mga projects, prototypes and all. walang oras na magpahinga. medyo kararating ko lang nang ginawa ko 'tong entry na ito. at may gana pa akong mag-blog.

masama yung pakiramdam ko. may sipon ako and ubo. hindi ko alam kung dahil sa sudden change ng weather, o hinawaan ako ng kung sino man sa mga kasama ko kahapon. ummm... sa mga hindi nakakaalam, nag-punta kame sa "SAN MATEO, RIZAL" para gumawa ng "AUDIO AMPLIFIER". si aldrin kasi mei sakit. or, kgagaling lang ata sa sakit at na-ospital pa ata. hala. ngayon, masakit na makati yung throat ko, hindi ako makahinga at mabigat ang ulo't pakiramdam ko. kamusta naman? malapit na ang mga defense at finals. wag ngayon!

wala naman masyadong nangyari kanina. nagmeeting kami ng mga groupmates ko sa tronixlab. si aldrin, brein, oliver and ako. wala si randy. madaya! kami pumasok, siya hindi! nyahehehe... 9am na kami pumasok, hindi naman kasi required. nag-usap lang talaga kami. at nagtawanan. nagkwentahan. and so on. eto yung price list:

2770 - amplifier

1000 - stereo, woofer, tweeter

1500 - casing/chassis

aproximately, mga 5000 lahat. since 5 kami sa group, tig-1000 kami! syet! hayy... ganyan talaga. ganyan nga ba talaga???!!!

gabi na ko nakauwi. ang lakas ng ulan bandang 6 to 730 PM. after nun, tumigil. thank, GOD! kasi, wala akong payong. pero, syet naman ang kapalit. ANG DAMING TAO!! as in, MADAMING TAO!! MADLA!! puno na lahat ng jeep, at nagsisimula na maubos silang lahat, hindi pa rin ako nakakasakay. buti nalang, hindi ako iniwan nila mek, chen and shammy. matagal din kaming nag-antay at nagpapalipat-lipat ng pwesto. hanggang sa napagpasyahan naming mag-LRT na lang kame. ansaya. hehehe. nagjoke-joke na naman kame. kumakanta si hisham. si mek tumatawa ng super lakas (nakakahiya)... si chen at ako naka-upo at nagpapasarap habang pinapaypayan nila kame. hehe.

ayun! unang bumaba si chen, then sabay kaming tatlo (mek, sham and me. plus, yung friends ni sham). mei kasabay ako sa MRT. as usual, deadly na naman sumakay don. SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST!! TOTAL STRUGGLE!!! hahaha! ang masaklap, dahil sobrang gabi na, sarado na yung mall na kung saan doon dapat ako dadaan patungo sa sakayan. ayun, medyo sa labas ako. mas masaklap, mali yung nilabasan ko. hindi ko kasi kabisado. dun ako sa other side. madilim. scary. dumaan nalang ako sa jollibee at bumili ng ice tea kc uhaw na ko. nag-lakad. PILA na naman! sumakay ng jeep. then, tricycle. then, bahay na. nandun c mama, sa labas, inaantay na ko.

hagard talaga! pero, masaya!

hehehe...bakit kaya?!

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hindi ko cia nakita kanina, pero ayos lang.

mei nakita na kong bago. haha!

hayy...eto na naman.

YAEL, I LOVE YOU!!!

hayy... love na love ko talaga cia. dati, crush lang. ok yung pagka-revive nia sa song na "nakapagtataka" by APO. bumili nga pla ako ng original CD ng "Kami nAPO muna" by various artists. revival ng mga songs na pina-sikat ng APO Hiking Society. dati, ang gusto ko lang sa mga kanta nila, "PANALANGIN" and "EWAN"... pero ngayon, "NAKAPAGTATAKA" and "ANNA" dumagdag. "SPONGECOLA" and "TOP SUZARA" ung nag-revive, respectively! nakaka-adik. sama mo na rin yung "PAANO" by shamrock... hayy...

Nakapagtataka

Spongecola

Walang tigil ang gulo sa aking
pag-iisip

Mula ng tayo’y nagpasyang
maghiwalay

Nagpaalam pagkat hindi tayo
bagay

Nakapagtataka, ooh-wooh

Kung bakit ganito ang aking
kapalaran

Di ba ilang ulit ka ng
nagpaalam

At bawat paalam ay puno ng
iyakan

Nakapagtataka,
nakapagtataka

[refrain]
Hindi ka ba napapagod

O di kaya nagsasawa

Sa ating mga tampuhan

Walang hanggang katapusan

Napahid na’ng mga luha

Damdamin at puso’y tigang

Wala ng maibubuga

Wala na akong maramdaman

Kung tunay tayong nagmamahalan

Ba’t di tayo magkasunduan

Walang tigil ang ulan at nasaan ka araw

Napa’no na’ng pag-ibig sa isa’t-isa

Wala na bang nananatiling pag-asa

Nakapagtataka, saan na napunta?

(repeat refrain)
Napahid na’ng mga luha

Damdamin at puso’y tigang

Wala ng maibubuga

Wala na akong maramdaman

Kung tunay tayong nagmamahalan

Ba’t di tayo magkasunduan hmmm…

ok talaga yung song na 'to. lalo na si YAEL. nagustohan ko siya dahil sa performance ni YAEL. he knows how to feel the song. he knows how to let the listeners feel song. grabe! yung ni-lunch nila yung album sa ASAP, natulala talaga ako nung kumakanta siya. with matching kilabot pa yun ang pagka-speechless. waaaa! naka-white polo siya na three-fourths. ang ganda nung kamay nia and yung eyes nia! hayy...

anyways, hindi lang yung singer, pati yung lyrics, ok rin. kahit na it doesn't apply to me, once na marinig mo yung song, you'll be able to relate and feel the song. ganda.

EVIL PROTOTYPES

maki! rachel... wag na kaung umiyak! i know, nakakalungkot nga naman pag sumabog yung prototype nio di ba? hayy... salbahe pa naman ata yung prof nio dyan!!!! CURSE HIM! DAMN HIM! baka sinabutahe kau...

wala na talaga akong masabi. nakakalungkot talaga.

i'm just here, ha! if you need someone to talk to... please! dont hesitate to come to me. kahit sino. basta ba mabuti at seryosong usapan ang pakay, walang problema.

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sana, gumana yung prototype namin.

sana, maging maayos ang defense namin!kaya natin 'to!

aja, Hanna!

fight, Reign!

YOSH!